Well, I think I'm gonna have to make use of what I have.

I have been dying for a new computer, and I want a brand new one, something nice and cool, but money is always an issue, since I got a roommate, turns out he has a piece of shit OLD computer, but it happens to work, well, that was after we actually opened it up and figured out there was something disconnected, and we plugged it back to where it is suppose to be plugged into.
Anyway, I can use that, ans I will have to, just 'cause I have a really good idea in my head for a very interesting novel, and long hand is out of the question, so now, research, I need examples of good and bad people, and of good and bad situations, what is your criteria as far as what makes a good person good, and what makes a person deserve Hell ( my book has to do with religion, but no preaching though, just need layers of complexity ). So, I can use some help finding where the scale tips over, in both directions, help please.

Finally!

A long time dream of mine has come true, I, finally, will be traveling to Europe, I have never, ever, been there before, ( though people say I look Spanish or Italian ), and I will be visiting a childhood friend that I have not seen in three years, so we will be tearing up the town, he is currently in Madrid on a one year exchange program, and he said he really liked Paris, so that if I came to visit him, we should go somewhere besides Spain, so......I am flying into Paris on the 28 of March, be there for a while, he knows someone we can stay with, which helps a lot, and then on the first of April we are off to Madrid, I can hardly wait, and we will be taking the town by storm over there as well, hehehe, and who knows, maybe we will even go to Morocco, since it is so close to Spain and, I work with a lot of Moroccans, it just might be a must, I was already told that, with a phone call, it can be arranged for someone to pick me up and show me the town, and no hotel is needed, so that sounds appealing, we shall see what happens. But Europe, here I come.

Make out, these guys are crazy.

I actually took this footage, oh drunk people.

Pictures, second course, enjoy.

More San Miguel de Allende





In México City, subway station "Insurgentes".















Querétaro

I posted some pics, tell the world

'Cause you won´t find these anywhere else, I took 'em, they are unique, haha, enjoy.


That one is right outside my apartment, lots of snow, but very pretty.


The Rocky Mou8ntains, from the ariplane.






Guadalajara, Jalisco



And this is San Miguel de Allende, Guanajuato




And this is around two in the morning
Now, Iwill be posting more pictures on my spanish blog, so check that out, "La oveja negra", on my links, bye.

Traveling, this time it's for fun.

So I am leaving the country for a couple of weeks, back to México, mi adorado México, i am flying to Guadalajara, and no more wisdom teeth pulling this time, I am gonna party my ass off, first stop, pals, need to check how that internet radio station that I am co-owner of is doing, and have some beers while we discuss the future of it, he he, then, the ex-girlfriend, now I know what you are thinking, " You just wanna get laid, have some ex sex, and the hell with the abstinence vow", he he, no, I admit that she is a sexy thing, but we never had sex when we where together, I don't see it happening now, even if I did try, but we are really good friends, and she might be involved with someone anyway, so scratch that, no sex with my ex-girlfriend.
The there is the family, I am really happy that I get to see my sister and my dad, and i really need to sit down and chat with dad, he has been a little bit of an ass to mom, and it has bit totally uncalled for, so I need to take care of that.
Definitely San Miguel de Allende, it is the town I grew up in, it is beautiful in every way, and I am not just saying that because I am from there, it is a very hot touristic spot for a reason, that reason, it is astonishingly beautiful, and great night life, people from all over the world, and the drinking age ( 18 ) is not really enforced, he he, so kids can get hammered over there, and they do.
Now, I need to go to Mexico City, I promised an Angel that I would visit, and that promise is Holy, so I most certainly need to go to the biggest city in the world, but I won't be there for that long, so, I'll take as many pictures as I can, and I will be posting beautiful pictures of Mexico, I know I have said that before, but I'll do it this time.

Beautiful

Without access to true Chaos we will never have true peace.

Hey!

"I'll believe it when I see it." Thanks for the support Pequeña, and yes I am still on track, and I am doing fine, granted, Thursday was very difficult, that fucking snow storm had me snowed in, so I had no distractions, on an average day, I am busy and that doesn't leave a whole lot of possibilities for the hormones to mess up my day, but since I was in my house, by myself, with not a whole lot to do, well.... It was, well, ( and I didn't want to use a pun here, but fuck it ), it was hard, so I needed to focus on other things, which was not at all easy, I did dishes, laundry, all my laundry as a matter of fact, wrote, cleaned up, and watched TV, which was a mistake, because there is always some half naked woman on TV trying to sell you something.
My biggest mistake was to keep watching Nip/Tuck, it is a great show, but it really made things more stressful, on season one Matt has a threesome with two REALLY HOT cheerleaders, I know, poor guy, but I managed, and Friday was OK, today I feel great and the lack of sex is under control, next week , I hit the gym, I have to burn this energy somehow.

How many days and how many nights?

So, I have decided to focus on things around me in a different way, and it is odd how I came up with this decision, but I have decided to put sex way down the list, waaaay down where it just doesn't get in the way, and if nothing of a sexual nature happens, great, I welcome that, I think I really need to focus on people, not that I am a hound dog, but if I really want to build a relationship with someone, then, I need to focus on how much I know the person, how we get a long, and what type of connection we have, I am aware that this might take a while, but things that are good take some investing, and things that are great take a whole lot of effort. So i am putting an effort to focus my attention in different ways, and, if anything, this will be an interesting learning experience, and I am all about that. I wonder how difficult abstinence is on a long term basis, well I know that is isn't easy, but, those dry spells haven't been a conscious decision to grow in other areas, they have just been shitty dry spells, no booty, no fun.
But this is something that feels right, so I guess I am gonna get to know that girl I am interested in, in an interesting way, hhhmmm, this reminds me of that movie "40 days and 40 nights", oh well, let's see what happens.

So, where these people even there?

I was just at a holiday party, for the staff of Governor Bill Owens, and it was a quaint little get together, free booze, and finger food pass around on trays, the decorations in the official residence of the Governor are fantastic, the house in itself is beautiful, but the bullshit that was in the room was astonishing, granted, it was a republican gathering, nothing else is to be expected, but the way they were speaking of Bill Owens' "integrity and morality", all that phony speech of his values and his example as a person. The guy was fucking around with his mistress, he has an illegitimate child, and he is a huge fucking asshole, as a person nobody likes the guy, and everybody is glad he is leaving office. Agh, Republicans.

Scratch that.

No more Crew, at least none that I am interested in investing to much time with, hey shit happens, but the important thing is the lesson learned, so, I learned hypocrisy comes in any package, and that a coward is not the best option for a friend, oh well, not a whole is lost, but now I want a crew, hhhhhmmmm, paradox..... hhhhmmmmm, the search is on, in the mean time a good book is always great company.

Well....

...I really liked the picture that is underneath this post, and I can't fucking set it as my profile picture, stupid blogger won't let me, Ideas?

The Crew

So know I am hanging out with some people from work, I swear, we are a very unusually group, we are all very different, agewise, in our backgrounds, ages even, but somehow we have formed something really cool, we have a nice posse going on, and I honestly never would have seen it coming, but I guess that is why it is such a nice surprise.
Last night I had some really good conversations with the crew, or should I say the Motley Crew, and though there are people that kind of drift in and out, the crew core remains stable, I LOVE IT. Now, if I can just find a girlfriend.

Writer's Block

So what the hell should I write, I honestly don't know, I feel that I have to truly get started writing that story that is at the back of my mind, but I don't know where to start, and I have been procrastinating, because I don't have a computer, and I will be buying one soon, in a month or so I should have one already, a nice notebook by apple, yay, but that doesn't mean I can't start writing now............... I just don't know where to start, and what story to start putting down, I know it will be in English, just because it will be easier to get publish something here in Denver if it isn't in Spanish, ( though, you never know ).
I have a rather dark character in mind for a story, and I am a little concerned that I will have to go to a bad place in my mind, to get the proper fuel for the story, but then again, it is not an autobiography, so, maybe I don't have to, hhhhmmm complicated this life is.
What I do know, is that I need to write something good enough to get published, something that will actually become a book, and as such, it will sell, but I don't even know what way to go. How do I pull this out of my ass? That is the question.
I also have an idea about a pimp, a made up autobiography, or should I say, the biography of a made up character, it is a very peculiar pimp by the way, I got the idea from an ex co-worker, and it is brilliant, thanx "K".
So if you have any suggestions, let me know, ( that includes you Megan ), and hopefully I will have something down soon, later.

Just so you know.

Windows SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back in Denver

It is strange to go back "home" when I actually went home for a vacation, I visited the city where I ended my adolescence and entered adulthood, I visited the town I grew up in, and everything was so familiar and yet so different.
Fortunately I was able to see old friends, people I had not seen in ages, people I went to school with, for what seems like forever, forever ago, and I see things getting prettier, getting dirtier, getting bigger, just like us, just like the people the towns and cities are made of, I now am truly aware of the fact that I am a wanderer, that I am neither from here or from there, I guess I am from everywhere. And though it is true that, I have set up base here in Denver, I know it is temporary, I know that as soon as I get a good opportunity, I will leave, Europe calls, Miami awaits, South America is a must, and home, well, home is where the heart is, so I will make the world my home, I am a citizen of the world, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Cab

Apparently Denver has one of the worst systems available for dispatching taxis, I waited for a cab for an insane amount of time, so long actually, that I forgot what I had in my mind for this post, FUCK, anyway, a big middle finger to the lame ass system Denver has for its cabs.

Okay, This just made me laugh

It's silly, that is why I like it, so I share it with you guys.

Homecomming

Going home is always exciting and strange, I grew up in a turistic town, and the growth it's had in the last few years is astonishing, the kids are married, the grown ups are now officially old, people are dead, and the tourism is booming, so the international supply for the international demand, has kept up, so of course the amount of specialty everything ( clothing, food, classes ) has increased impressively, but the quantity of girls with great asses doesn't seem to have changed.
I thought globalization would have included that by now, oh well.