Thus Me

I'm Hungry

2010-03-28T02:10:00.001-06:00

And that is about all I have to say at the moment.

The Rocky Mountain News is gone

2009-02-27T23:32:00.002-07:00

Well, just 55 days before their 150th anniversary, the Rocky Mountain News published today its very last issue.
This is resonating with the people of Denver in very interesting ways. Many are sad, I personally was shocked to hear about it. And this seems to be the trend with many corporations including Wolf Camera and Circuit City.
I do believe a few more big companies will fall, the question is: Which ones?

Obama keeps leading.....

2008-10-16T17:47:00.002-06:00

....and old "Maverick" keeps trailing behind.

I didn't see the firs two debates, only the second half of the last one. But I thought it was pretty obvious that Barack Obama was doing considerably better than McCain. Then I come to learn that the last debate was McCain's best......what the fuck? And people keep supporting him? I don't get it.
Now, I do believe that John McCain is the better option out of all the Republican options, but that does not mean he is a good option at all. It's a good thing he is distancing himself from the Bush administration policies, but it is too little too late because McCain has backed up old Dubya a whole lot, he isn't fooling anybody, we know he is still pro faulty politics.

Continue McCain, keep digging that hole.

Just click on the link

2008-10-13T19:14:00.001-06:00

Virgin Boy.

Good to see they are concerned....

2008-10-13T00:36:00.003-06:00

One of my sources overheard Bob Schaffer say, that he hates to admit that the debate really hurt McCain.
It is good to know that good 'ol Bob can be somewhat objective in the midst of slandering Udall.
Anyway, you couldn't pay me to vote for that guy, Schaffer just keeps throwing shit at Udall hoping it will stick. Good luck with that Bob.

Palin did not screw up..

2008-10-02T21:26:00.002-06:00

...at least not in an embarrassing way, which is what I expected.
Though, I still believe Biden won hands down.

The Debate

2008-10-01T17:49:00.004-06:00

Tomorrow night Biden and Palin go head to head in the vice president candidate debate. Wow, that sounds like a mouthfull. Anyway. I expect Joe Biden to tear her a new asshole. Palin keeps messing everything up whenever she talks, she really seems like a poor choice of a candidate and, I hear that she is being preped heavily for the debate: She needs the extra help, hopefully, it will supply a big amount of material for comedians. Here's to you SNL.

2008-09-12T14:26:00.000-06:00

2008-09-04T14:36:00.000-06:00

I think I-m just gonna delete this blog.

2008-05-04T16:17:00.002-06:00

Don't really do anything with it anymore.

Suggestions?

Look

2008-03-09T03:24:00.005-06:00

Hopefully, I can be the one that lands the cover picture for Kate's new album.
I tried to take the best pictures possible, and I love these.
What do you think?

(We had a photo shoot because I have an assignment, the subject is "Secrets" in this case.)
Visit the Photo Martini Club, and let me know if you have heard of it.

Turns Out....

2008-02-29T23:01:00.002-07:00

I am officially a photographer. Things are going well with the new enterprise I have given myself, and hopefully I will sell some of my stuff soon. I have charged for my services at this point, so I guess that makes me a true freelance photographer, something that I find really fucking cool.
The next stop is getting more work as such, so that taking cool pictures becomes an actual supporting income. Lets see how that turns out.

I Fucking hate this shitty publicity....

2008-02-12T01:34:00.000-07:00

I put up this stuff from the google ad service, and it sucks big sweaty donkey balls. It is not as customizable as I would like, it leaves much to be desired, and the money it has generated is two fucking cents.
It sucks ass with a passion.....................Though I will sit down and see how I can make it better.

I love my Country

2008-02-03T01:37:00.000-07:00

And the 10 days I spent there were fantastic. I did not want to leave. I flew into Guadalajara, Went to Nayarit, stay on the beach for a couple of days, Playa Los Cocos. Back to Guanatos, then went to to my beautiful San Miguel de Allende for an awesome weekend with a lot of friends.
México is gorgeous, sexy, fun, exciting, unique, and its mine, it is in my heart and in my soul. I can't help but going back, I just can't.

I wish to become a better person

2007-12-29T00:15:00.001-07:00

It's as simple as that. I have made some bad decisions in my life, I have hurt some people, and I truly don't want to ever go through that again.
And even though it is impossible to be perfect, I do need to be better. Let me see how well I do at it. It is reduced to that, in its most simple presentation.

I completely agree

2007-12-05T01:29:00.000-07:00

On a lighter side

2007-11-25T14:42:00.000-07:00

I thought this was kinda cute.

So now What?

2007-11-21T20:13:00.000-07:00

I am trying to develop a true skill in photography, and eventually build a portfolio, get business and make money off of taking pictures. But I am not entirely sure how to do this, however, I am kinda resourceful, so I am networking as much as possible, phone number here, contact there, and allot of paying attention to the details around me, asking does go a long way. So I need to do that.
In the mean time, I'll leave you with some pictures I took with my new Nikon D40x SLR kick ass piece of equipment. Later dudes.

The Amsterdam Pics

2007-10-29T18:32:00.000-06:00

I am very excited about this

2007-10-19T21:06:00.000-06:00

This is the new trailer for Street Fighter IV, it looks fantastic. I grew up with the classic Street Fighter II, and can't wait to see what this game turns out to be.

Skip is in Amsterdam

2007-10-09T00:24:00.000-06:00

I don't have pictures yet, but believe me, I'll post them as soon as I get them. In the mean time, here are some more pictures of Skip.

More Skip

2007-09-23T21:35:00.000-06:00

Ouch

2007-09-07T17:39:00.000-06:00

I have very persistent back pain, and I can't get rid of it. Besides seeing a doctor ( which I have already done ). What do you suggest I try?

Well atta boy.....

2007-08-31T02:04:00.000-06:00

That's my Skip, as you can see, he got into a major stare down with this horse down in México, it was intense, you could cut the tension with a knife.....the crowd was awed by the fierceness in the eyes of both beasts, and the whispers and murmurs could be heard about.

But in the end, my little Costarican Tree Frog won, subjugating the cinnamon horsey, which had no other choice, but to give in to the superior studlyness of the green mini giant. So Skip approached, got on top, cowboy style, and rode that horse, calmly and triumphantly. That's my little buddy. He made me proud. And his adventures shall keep coming.

You know.....

2007-08-28T02:45:00.000-06:00

I have really neglected this blog.......But I haven't been inspired to write in it, I have been more active in spanish, yeah, you guys should go check that out.

Doing Time

2007-08-23T01:22:00.000-06:00

I am comming upon a great oportunity, one that would involve moving to Europe, so I decide I will take it, so that means I have a year to get my shit together, to better my life, ( I should me doing that anyway ), I should become an interpreter, that pays well, and I know that I would be better off in becoming one, so I need to make it so.

I am in México.....Again.....

2007-07-31T17:32:00.000-06:00

Of course, this is where I grew up, and where my heart is, I have been enjoying the time off work and, of course, the fodd, yummy, the food here is soooo much better than in the States, sorry, that is thr truth. Oh and I have been taking lots of pictures of Skip, my Travelling Frog, here I posted a couple, take a look, more later.

Well.....

2007-07-12T16:39:00.000-06:00

I am writing a book, that deals with human nature, the essence that we have as people, regarding good and evil, our decisions, our actions and the consequences that they bring us, the interpretations of right and wrong that we can have, and there is also some religion involved. So if you can send me stories that speak of your experiences, or your opinions on what makes people good or bad, who is of benefit to society, who isn't, and where the line is drawn, I would appreciate it greatly.

Kitty....?

2007-07-10T13:11:00.000-06:00

I hope he is okay, that looks like it could hurt.

And This is Madrid

2007-07-02T00:00:00.001-06:00

Going Home....

2007-07-01T23:56:00.000-06:00

....For two nice weeks, I leave to Guadalajara on the 25 of July and I will be back on August the 8, so a well deserved vacation is on the way. Pictures later.

Well....

2007-06-05T00:48:00.000-06:00

I have now reached 1,000 hits on my clustrmaps, thank you all for pitching in, I will continue to be around, later.

Let there be Frog

2007-05-28T16:55:00.000-06:00

Meet Skip, my traveling frog,he will know the world, and so will you throug his travels.

I'm sorry, but I just found this adorable.

2007-05-23T16:15:00.000-06:00

Yeah! Publish it

2007-05-20T22:34:00.000-06:00

O yeah...

2007-05-08T00:19:00.000-06:00

I Said I was gonna keep posting the pictures form my trip, and since I recently got a computer of my own, well, now it is so much easier, so here I go, enjoy the pics, later guys.

On being anti-social....

2007-04-11T15:08:00.000-06:00

I was reading Algelic's blog, and she speaks of being anti-social, and gives some tips that, I am sure work well, but I feel I need to pitch in 'cause I love fucking with people, you see, I find the human mind to be the most interesting thing on this Earth, it truly fascinates me on every level, that is why I like smart women, stupid people annoy the hell out of me, yeah, you know who you are, you are dumb and you bother me...... Any way, back to the point. One of the best ways to get to know a person is figuring out where there limits are, what boundaries define them, so pushing there buttons is a sure way to know what drives people, the way they look at things, the insecurities every person has, and blah blah blah.
So my family is a little weird, very distinct characters every one of us, the curios thing is that some people see me as a huge people person ( though sometimes I hate my job because I have to deal with people ), and when i am the focus of attention, when they see me go in front of everybody and tell jokes, when I make customers smile and ask for my name so they can tell the manager how nice I am, that is when I find it funny, that is when people around me are shocked when I tell them that out of Mom, Dad, Sis, and I , I am the least social. See Dad was an amazing salesperson, and a true bohemian, he loves good company and profound conversations, Sis, is the girl that was both popular and got the good grades in school, she was the girl a lot of guys were after, but never disappointed our parents, the girl that kids love to be around, and that, when she is in a good mood, lights up the room with her sole presence. Then there is Mom and I, we are good people readers, we are know for being very social, and smart and a bunch of good stuff, but we were commonly shadowed by the social skills of Dad and Sis. Some people just don't understand how this is possible, fuck 'em.
Now, since I love shocking people and pressing buttons, here are some tips:
-Point out defects, "You know, your left nostril is sooo much bigger than your right one".
-When you are reading a book, and someone asks what it's about, start talking, and stop after 5 seconds, look at them and say: "I'm not even gonna bother, its outside your grasp"
-When people try to start a conversation, just stare at them, let them say whatever it is they are saying, drag a pause and look bored out of your mind/pissed, then just say that they are the source of your sudden migraine.
-If some asks if you want to go out and do something, say that you'd rather be doing anything else, like shaving your toes or doing the hokey pokey.
-Make uncomfortable questions, like: "Have you always been this pale? How come your little brother makes more money than you? Do you try to make your voice that whiny, or is it just you unfortunate nature? How come, no matter how hard I concentrate, you don't disappear? Is that a piss stain on your pants, or are you just happy to see me? So are you gonna start going to AA meeting soon, or are you waiting for a formal intervention? Is your Mom aware she raised such a douche bag?, Oh, I'm sorry, was I supposed to be paying attention to what you are yapping about?"
-And of course, the viper statements, these are not questions, you are telling people what you think, in an unapologetic way :"No, that dress doesn't make you look fat, your FAT makes you look fat. No its not that what I say sound cynical, its that I AM cynical. I wont help you with your home work unless you put out. ETC.

I'll think of more, but for now, I'll leave it at that.

I´ll keep 'em coming.

2007-04-04T11:45:00.000-06:00

I took a shot on the artistic pont of view of things, not bad huh? I still need to learn the basics of photography, but with practice I have been getting some really good pictures, I hope I can develope some kinda of talent for this.

Yup, that´s a beer, I am not much of a beer drinkier, but sometimes I go through fazes, and the was a really interesting type of beer, Amsterdam, 8.4% alcohol, try it.

A beautiful sunrise as we were flying over Ireland, this is how the old continent greated me, and I returned the smile, the great hing about this little camera is that it takes great pictures, the perfect companion.

The Arch of Triumph, a rather impressive work of commemoration to the french victories under Napoleon´s command, and a place I had wanted to see for quiete a while. Check.

A whole lot to see in Paris

2007-04-04T10:48:00.000-06:00

I gotta admit that Paris was a pleasent surprise, I made this trip with Madrid in mind, and France was just an added place, but it is truly amazing, a lot to see and to do, but expensive, very expensive.

The great thing about drinking in public is that you can sight see and make funny videos at the same time, since it is legal in Paris, well, we just had to drink a beer next to the Big Antenna, I am not sure what that Big Ass Antenna is doing in the middle of the city, but I am convinced that it has something to do with the coverage.

And the streets are filled with detail, everywhere you turn there is a post card picture waiting to be taken.

So I took pictures, lots of them, and I am very glad I did.

Oh, this last picture of the tied up girl didn´t happend in Paris, it was in the US, I just felt like adding it.

"I'm leaving on a jet plane

2007-03-24T11:40:00.000-06:00

Don't know when I'll be back again." Well, I do, I'll be back on easter, but this tueday I leave for Paris, and a few days later, I'll hit Madrid, careful Europe, here I come.

Ah Portishead.....

2007-03-24T11:02:00.000-06:00

I love the cool beat and the erie video, check it out.

Getting There...Red Dots Everywhere!

2007-03-14T14:01:00.000-06:00

So, I have this ambitious little project, that involves giving chicken pox to a world map, meaning that the clustrmaps thingy on the right puts a red dot on the location of whomever is visiting my blog, and I want red dots everywhere, so please do pitch in, if you like my blog recommend it, if you live in Europe, or Asia, or....Well, anywhere but Denver, don't be afraid to leave a comment. Because i don't know people in most of the places that are marked on the map, but I'll take time and write back, if I have somewhere to write back to that is. So let's put red dots everywhere, bye.

Le Grand Content

2007-03-12T15:28:00.001-06:00

I LOVE this fucking video, it is very interesting and entertaining, check it out!

Some kind of humor

2007-03-10T13:45:00.000-07:00

And since I went without sex for a while, I can relate.

I'm sorry, I stole this.

2007-03-10T13:40:00.000-07:00

And I probably shouldn't have, but I came across a Capoeira blog that had this awesome picture, and it is in some language I really don't understand, I think it is Czech, but not sure, so if the guy that posted it is mad at me I will take it down, but I think it is a beautiful picture, so enjoy, while it lasts.

Help

2007-03-05T14:17:00.000-07:00

Winter is very depressing, and to be honest, i can't wait until this fucking cold dies completely, though today is warm, and life seems to be getting warmer, something that I appreciate, though, the tree are still in winter mode, and the spring is just teasing us.
Seems like I need a jumpstart with my novel, I think spring will be the best time to do it, however, the best time to do something is always now, so, I will get down to it before the week is over, I truly need to get it started, not worried, just anxious.

Well, I think I'm gonna have to make use of what I have.

2007-02-21T16:05:00.000-07:00

I have been dying for a new computer, and I want a brand new one, something nice and cool, but money is always an issue, since I got a roommate, turns out he has a piece of shit OLD computer, but it happens to work, well, that was after we actually opened it up and figured out there was something disconnected, and we plugged it back to where it is suppose to be plugged into.
Anyway, I can use that, ans I will have to, just 'cause I have a really good idea in my head for a very interesting novel, and long hand is out of the question, so now, research, I need examples of good and bad people, and of good and bad situations, what is your criteria as far as what makes a good person good, and what makes a person deserve Hell ( my book has to do with religion, but no preaching though, just need layers of complexity ). So, I can use some help finding where the scale tips over, in both directions, help please.

Finally!

2007-02-16T16:29:00.000-07:00

A long time dream of mine has come true, I, finally, will be traveling to Europe, I have never, ever, been there before, ( though people say I look Spanish or Italian ), and I will be visiting a childhood friend that I have not seen in three years, so we will be tearing up the town, he is currently in Madrid on a one year exchange program, and he said he really liked Paris, so that if I came to visit him, we should go somewhere besides Spain, so......I am flying into Paris on the 28 of March, be there for a while, he knows someone we can stay with, which helps a lot, and then on the first of April we are off to Madrid, I can hardly wait, and we will be taking the town by storm over there as well, hehehe, and who knows, maybe we will even go to Morocco, since it is so close to Spain and, I work with a lot of Moroccans, it just might be a must, I was already told that, with a phone call, it can be arranged for someone to pick me up and show me the town, and no hotel is needed, so that sounds appealing, we shall see what happens. But Europe, here I come.

Make out, these guys are crazy.

2007-01-20T14:50:00.000-07:00

I actually took this footage, oh drunk people.

Pictures, second course, enjoy.

2007-01-19T11:43:00.000-07:00

More San Miguel de Allende

In México City, subway station "Insurgentes".

Querétaro

I posted some pics, tell the world

2007-01-14T12:53:00.000-07:00

'Cause you won´t find these anywhere else, I took 'em, they are unique, haha, enjoy.

That one is right outside my apartment, lots of snow, but very pretty.

The Rocky Mou8ntains, from the ariplane.

Guadalajara, Jalisco

And this is San Miguel de Allende, Guanajuato

And this is around two in the morning
Now, Iwill be posting more pictures on my spanish blog, so check that out, "La oveja negra", on my links, bye.

Traveling, this time it's for fun.

2007-01-06T14:58:00.000-07:00

So I am leaving the country for a couple of weeks, back to México, mi adorado México, i am flying to Guadalajara, and no more wisdom teeth pulling this time, I am gonna party my ass off, first stop, pals, need to check how that internet radio station that I am co-owner of is doing, and have some beers while we discuss the future of it, he he, then, the ex-girlfriend, now I know what you are thinking, " You just wanna get laid, have some ex sex, and the hell with the abstinence vow", he he, no, I admit that she is a sexy thing, but we never had sex when we where together, I don't see it happening now, even if I did try, but we are really good friends, and she might be involved with someone anyway, so scratch that, no sex with my ex-girlfriend.
The there is the family, I am really happy that I get to see my sister and my dad, and i really need to sit down and chat with dad, he has been a little bit of an ass to mom, and it has bit totally uncalled for, so I need to take care of that.
Definitely San Miguel de Allende, it is the town I grew up in, it is beautiful in every way, and I am not just saying that because I am from there, it is a very hot touristic spot for a reason, that reason, it is astonishingly beautiful, and great night life, people from all over the world, and the drinking age ( 18 ) is not really enforced, he he, so kids can get hammered over there, and they do.
Now, I need to go to Mexico City, I promised an Angel that I would visit, and that promise is Holy, so I most certainly need to go to the biggest city in the world, but I won't be there for that long, so, I'll take as many pictures as I can, and I will be posting beautiful pictures of Mexico, I know I have said that before, but I'll do it this time.

Beautiful

2007-01-02T17:35:00.000-07:00

Without access to true Chaos we will never have true peace.

Hey!

2006-12-30T13:02:00.000-07:00

"I'll believe it when I see it." Thanks for the support Pequeña, and yes I am still on track, and I am doing fine, granted, Thursday was very difficult, that fucking snow storm had me snowed in, so I had no distractions, on an average day, I am busy and that doesn't leave a whole lot of possibilities for the hormones to mess up my day, but since I was in my house, by myself, with not a whole lot to do, well.... It was, well, ( and I didn't want to use a pun here, but fuck it ), it was hard, so I needed to focus on other things, which was not at all easy, I did dishes, laundry, all my laundry as a matter of fact, wrote, cleaned up, and watched TV, which was a mistake, because there is always some half naked woman on TV trying to sell you something.
My biggest mistake was to keep watching Nip/Tuck, it is a great show, but it really made things more stressful, on season one Matt has a threesome with two REALLY HOT cheerleaders, I know, poor guy, but I managed, and Friday was OK, today I feel great and the lack of sex is under control, next week , I hit the gym, I have to burn this energy somehow.

How many days and how many nights?

2006-12-26T13:09:00.000-07:00

So, I have decided to focus on things around me in a different way, and it is odd how I came up with this decision, but I have decided to put sex way down the list, waaaay down where it just doesn't get in the way, and if nothing of a sexual nature happens, great, I welcome that, I think I really need to focus on people, not that I am a hound dog, but if I really want to build a relationship with someone, then, I need to focus on how much I know the person, how we get a long, and what type of connection we have, I am aware that this might take a while, but things that are good take some investing, and things that are great take a whole lot of effort. So i am putting an effort to focus my attention in different ways, and, if anything, this will be an interesting learning experience, and I am all about that. I wonder how difficult abstinence is on a long term basis, well I know that is isn't easy, but, those dry spells haven't been a conscious decision to grow in other areas, they have just been shitty dry spells, no booty, no fun.
But this is something that feels right, so I guess I am gonna get to know that girl I am interested in, in an interesting way, hhhmmm, this reminds me of that movie "40 days and 40 nights", oh well, let's see what happens.

So, where these people even there?

2006-12-18T21:52:00.000-07:00

I was just at a holiday party, for the staff of Governor Bill Owens, and it was a quaint little get together, free booze, and finger food pass around on trays, the decorations in the official residence of the Governor are fantastic, the house in itself is beautiful, but the bullshit that was in the room was astonishing, granted, it was a republican gathering, nothing else is to be expected, but the way they were speaking of Bill Owens' "integrity and morality", all that phony speech of his values and his example as a person. The guy was fucking around with his mistress, he has an illegitimate child, and he is a huge fucking asshole, as a person nobody likes the guy, and everybody is glad he is leaving office. Agh, Republicans.

Scratch that.

2006-12-11T19:30:00.000-07:00

No more Crew, at least none that I am interested in investing to much time with, hey shit happens, but the important thing is the lesson learned, so, I learned hypocrisy comes in any package, and that a coward is not the best option for a friend, oh well, not a whole is lost, but now I want a crew, hhhhhmmmm, paradox..... hhhhmmmmm, the search is on, in the mean time a good book is always great company.

Well....

2006-11-21T19:34:00.000-07:00

...I really liked the picture that is underneath this post, and I can't fucking set it as my profile picture, stupid blogger won't let me, Ideas?

2006-11-21T19:21:00.000-07:00

The Crew

2006-11-03T16:13:00.000-07:00

So know I am hanging out with some people from work, I swear, we are a very unusually group, we are all very different, agewise, in our backgrounds, ages even, but somehow we have formed something really cool, we have a nice posse going on, and I honestly never would have seen it coming, but I guess that is why it is such a nice surprise.
Last night I had some really good conversations with the crew, or should I say the Motley Crew, and though there are people that kind of drift in and out, the crew core remains stable, I LOVE IT. Now, if I can just find a girlfriend.

Writer's Block

2006-10-23T18:41:00.000-06:00

So what the hell should I write, I honestly don't know, I feel that I have to truly get started writing that story that is at the back of my mind, but I don't know where to start, and I have been procrastinating, because I don't have a computer, and I will be buying one soon, in a month or so I should have one already, a nice notebook by apple, yay, but that doesn't mean I can't start writing now............... I just don't know where to start, and what story to start putting down, I know it will be in English, just because it will be easier to get publish something here in Denver if it isn't in Spanish, ( though, you never know ).
I have a rather dark character in mind for a story, and I am a little concerned that I will have to go to a bad place in my mind, to get the proper fuel for the story, but then again, it is not an autobiography, so, maybe I don't have to, hhhhmmm complicated this life is.
What I do know, is that I need to write something good enough to get published, something that will actually become a book, and as such, it will sell, but I don't even know what way to go. How do I pull this out of my ass? That is the question.
I also have an idea about a pimp, a made up autobiography, or should I say, the biography of a made up character, it is a very peculiar pimp by the way, I got the idea from an ex co-worker, and it is brilliant, thanx "K".
So if you have any suggestions, let me know, ( that includes you Megan ), and hopefully I will have something down soon, later.

Just so you know.

2006-10-17T19:20:00.000-06:00

Windows SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back in Denver

2006-10-16T19:47:00.000-06:00

It is strange to go back "home" when I actually went home for a vacation, I visited the city where I ended my adolescence and entered adulthood, I visited the town I grew up in, and everything was so familiar and yet so different.
Fortunately I was able to see old friends, people I had not seen in ages, people I went to school with, for what seems like forever, forever ago, and I see things getting prettier, getting dirtier, getting bigger, just like us, just like the people the towns and cities are made of, I now am truly aware of the fact that I am a wanderer, that I am neither from here or from there, I guess I am from everywhere. And though it is true that, I have set up base here in Denver, I know it is temporary, I know that as soon as I get a good opportunity, I will leave, Europe calls, Miami awaits, South America is a must, and home, well, home is where the heart is, so I will make the world my home, I am a citizen of the world, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Cab

2006-10-16T19:26:00.000-06:00

Apparently Denver has one of the worst systems available for dispatching taxis, I waited for a cab for an insane amount of time, so long actually, that I forgot what I had in my mind for this post, FUCK, anyway, a big middle finger to the lame ass system Denver has for its cabs.

Okay, This just made me laugh

2006-10-07T15:38:00.000-06:00

It's silly, that is why I like it, so I share it with you guys.

Homecomming

2006-10-07T15:31:00.000-06:00

Going home is always exciting and strange, I grew up in a turistic town, and the growth it's had in the last few years is astonishing, the kids are married, the grown ups are now officially old, people are dead, and the tourism is booming, so the international supply for the international demand, has kept up, so of course the amount of specialty everything ( clothing, food, classes ) has increased impressively, but the quantity of girls with great asses doesn't seem to have changed.
I thought globalization would have included that by now, oh well.

You have it all, now have more.

2006-09-22T17:36:00.000-06:00

Seriously, there have always been the rich parents that pay for everything that Junior could possibly need, I think that the transition of something to monetary nothing is very valuable in creating a better and stronger character, look at W. Bush, that is a man that has never had a single day of hard labor in his life, and he is ( sadly yet humorously ) running a country, I guess daddy really has a lot of money if he could afford junior the presidency.

Dental Traveling

2006-09-16T13:02:00.000-06:00

So to fix some cavities that I have, I would have to pay well over 1200 bucks, and that wasn't even the reason I went to the dentist, I need my wisdom teeth pulled out, and that would pretty much cost me my first unborn child, but ha!, that jokes on them, I'm not even getting laid, hehe, but, the better option is to go back home, and have it all taken care of over there, So I have a plane ticket to Guadalajara, and I am ready to get my teeth exorcised, to bad I won't be able to enjoy the good ol Mexican food as much as I would like to, but, It has to be done, so I will travel for dental care, I wonder if they will give me Morphine, probably not, but I will need SOME KIND of medication, Tequila won't do it for this kind of stuff.

And the night...

2006-08-21T19:49:00.000-06:00

Is exquisite company to the existence.
One exists so much more, with you.

Well.....

2006-08-08T13:29:00.000-06:00

....I need to write about something, I really don't want all those huge gaps in my blog, but my brain is kinda numb right now, though, I am aware that I need to write an opinion about the world of cinema and the effect and influence it has on peoples lives, this from the Denver perspective, ( it a rather international effort my friend Hernan has come up with, an international blog for the global masses ). Sounds great, but what the hell do I write about? Without a doubt, here in the US, people seems to have a bigger void to fill, and what Jennifer Aniston is wearing, or whatever amount of punchlines "Wedding Crashers" has, seem to fill....Well, no not really, they don't fill the emptiness, but do get quite cozy in there, and seem to be entertaining enough to avoid dealing with the void. This of course is a generalization, but DAMN it is common, it seems that real substance is lost on the masses, and people who are ignorant really need to live the illusion that they are connected to the lives of celebrities, even the pseudo ones, it is very sad indeed, and as common as a tabloid newspaper.

Skin

2006-07-26T13:27:00.000-06:00

I managed to get away...
But I can't take off my skin
to shed the horror, the dread,
seems I'm still sweating fear.

The games the mind can play
-games it seems I'll never win-
bringing back the panic... The dead
and it is always crystal clear.

Though I survived... In a way
living tastes just like sin
couldn't heal... So I fled
but I'm stuck in the same gear.

( This is something I wrote for a character in a movie, sadly the project never took off, but t he experience was good. )

I went, but I had to come back

2006-07-15T16:25:00.000-06:00

Sometimes we find something that helps to define us, sometimes we will find something that we had no idea was missing, but fits perfectly in to our life just like a piece of a jigsaw puzzle fits flawlessly in the landscape picture cut up into 2000 bits. I am a Capoerista, this is part of what I am now. And just like the beard I am now regrowing, and the color blue I substituted in my early adolescence for the color green, I am now bringing it back full on, Sometimes a change won't do you good, sometimes looking outside of the box just makes you realize that you already have the answer boxed up and ready to go.

24

2006-07-11T17:44:00.000-06:00

So...I am aware of my age now more than ever, I can't help being this young, it's not my choice, and I can't speed up the process of becoming old, even though I feel like I am considerably underaged for my persona, I should be 32, or 35, something like that would make more sense, and I don't understand how my age has always been a disadvantage as far as dating, the last woman I had something to do with freaked out when she found out I am twenty four, she thought I was in my thirties, and that in itself was young enough, she is forty, as I said: She freaked out.
I have heard countless times how youth is the best time of one's life, be it childhood, adolescence, or the early twenties, somebody is always saying how those years were amazing, and I don't get it, I do enjoy certain things of being a young adult on my own, but from that to actually think these years rock well, that is a very big leap, and to be honest, I hated puberty, so if it is down hill from here, then I will welcome whatever thrill there is to come, last Friday night I almost got in a car accident twice, in a time frame of less than five minutes, curiously enough I wasn't afraid for myself, not at all, but I was worried for the guy that was driving, anyway, no harm was done.
So now what do I do, I guess the best thing to do is grow up regardless of my age, not that I am an immature person, but I can become 28 or 30 regardless of what my state ID says, first step, regrowing my beard, and this time it will not come off for a very, very long time. I should probably buy a car as well, definitely a computer, but the debate is whether or not should I say my real age. What do you think?

Beat this Caption

2006-05-22T13:59:00.000-06:00

"I don't care if your balls are stuck to the ice, I am NOT going to rub them untill they warm up!"

Untitled

2006-05-09T16:43:00.000-06:00

Fear of death....Anglisism,
the celebration of the parting,
and invoking the darkness to
surround one's life, one's breath,
one's soul, one's pain, one's death.
For what?... For living,
for breathing, healing, re-living.
If your whole life passes
before your eyes in an instant,
then you live a whole life
within a second,
you live twice before
you fade to black.
Die... So you can live,
live.... Before you die.
Purge..... That's what
passing away means,
be drained of toxicity, of
the toxic pain or your being,
and absorb, resuscitate
so the burdens alleviate,
give in to the cycle
so you can be free within it,
exhale to inhale.

How does this make you feel?

2006-05-09T16:34:00.000-06:00

2006-05-02T17:05:00.000-06:00

It's important that you know this,
it's important that you see
I'm a mess a dumb-fuck idiot,
but hey, it's still me.

May Day Quotes

2006-05-02T13:22:00.000-06:00

"Whenever there is a major community movement, especially a major community movement in which local people are participating, there is never any one place that has control over it," said Cecilia Munoz"

“The arguments against [the immigrant community] claim we abuse the economy of this country… And if this is in fact the case, then that day we will see a resurgence of the economy,”

So, are you guys ready...?

2006-04-28T16:42:00.000-06:00

This monday there will be a boycott on behalf of the inmigreant population, so there will be several million people on board to send a message: WE ARE HERE, WE ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE, AND WE WANT EQUALITY. If this movement reaches the proportions it can potentially reach, then we will be facing something historical of gargantous proportions, and the united States goverment is defenitely gonna have to listen, I am very anxious to see exactly what is going to happen, and the differrent reactions people will have.
Of course the Latin comunity is the leading force behind this, and with so many hispanics all over this country, we are to big of a force to ignore, a lot of people don't know that the nightly news transmitted from Univision has a larger audience that the news shows froms ABC, CBS and NBC combined! And that is every night monday thru friday, no fluke there.
Fortunately it isn't only the Latin community involved, but the asian community, as well as the Muslim, the Black, and the Jewish community are getting on board, and though it is true that the respons from these groups is not unanimous and of 100%, it is still a very large section from their populations, enough to make the message a whole lot louder.
But for now ( friday ), there is no way of knowing what the figures will be, we will just have to wait and see, and we will see...

Redeeming One's self.

2006-03-31T14:52:00.000-07:00

Redemption is a bitch, I was always a wonderful person, an example in many ways, but at some point I cracked, I tried to keep it together but failure isn't always a choice, so I crumbled, now I'm on The Long Hard Road out of Hell, vindication is so elusive, but to get back to where I was is not impossible, I have the blue print of what I am to rebuild: Myself, and looking back into my past the instructions are clear, the turning points I remember, there is no better guide to what I want to be, than what I once was...Still...It's the hardest thing I have ever faced, Redemption is a Bitch.

Well, I am Me again...

2006-03-31T13:36:00.000-07:00

...Or at least it seems like I am more like what I use to be, haven't played with knives in a while, and getting up in the morning does not involve summoning all my strenght just to get out of bed, it's good being able to enjoy the day, to look foward to something, anything, and not collapsing from within, no questioning the achievement of the breath I just let out and, or the purpose of bothering to go through life, things really are better. And i am getting back in touch with my inner child, I thought I had lost him... Well, "lost" is not the right word...Slaughter is more like it...Butcher, yeah, that's the word I am looking for, but it seems that the child is back, that my inner kid somehow survived, and his laugh is so refreshing, his views, though not as candid, are still full of life, and that is exactly the kind of nurture I am in need of.
So I don't know if I will ever be as close to my good inocent self as I once was, but I hope we can at least reconcile, how do you forgive the piss off grown up that went on a rampage on you and left you for dead?, I hope that kid that lives ( or lived ) in me can figure that out, something great about children is tha they can forgive and forget better than any adult can...I'm sorry...I truly am.

So for the time being...

2006-03-29T12:41:00.000-07:00

...My body is in pain, it ha been a while since I have been physically as active as I am now, so my muscles have been upset with me, my ligaments complain every time I go up or down some stairs, but it is worth it, in a couple of months it will all have paid off, until then, I need to keep stretching, Megan, how about a Massage?

2006-03-21T16:55:00.000-07:00

What does it take for a personality shift to occur? What I have learned, ( the hard way ), is that it takes a lot, but when it happens it can be catastrophic, just like the tetonic plates adjusting, reforming the face of the Earth, and sending shock waves all over the place, just like that a person can go through the painfull process of reshaping oneself, it is never easy, and and a lot of the times it is not controlable, but the end result is what makes you what you are now, and surviving loneliness, moving to another country, a suicide attempt, a car accident, or having a child are just a few of the hings that can cause our personal Richter Scale to go haywire, and after we clean up the mess, things always look different, because they are.

So here I go...

2006-02-28T19:06:00.000-07:00

I have been wanting a little piece of the internet to call my own for a while, I know that it's just a sliver of a particle of the worldwidweb, but hey, it is all mine.
So I am gonna try to pour as much of my personality into this virtual soul-cleansing space, let me know how I am doing, all of you.... Any of you......Anyone?, well, it doesn't have to be right now any way, I guess I will need to post some of my stuff before any thing happens, all right, I'm on it, so let the show begin and let's start.....